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WFSL_TheFossil's avatar

So thankful I grew up in a time when locking up kids was pretty much unheard of. You had to do some really bad shit, and fighting and being bullied didn't qualify. I was bullied every day of school from 5th to 8th grade in addition to having the fuck beat out of me at home every day from age 5 until the day I left for the army at 18. Not here to whine and match sorrows with you, just wanted to say I understand how bad bullying can be especially when you have nowhere and no one to help you. I'm sorry you had to go through all that.

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Slightly Lucid's avatar

Um - I am not sure when that was. I was threatened with Juvie by my parents in the 70s, and I don’t think we’ve stopped locking up girls for being difficult yet…

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WFSL_TheFossil's avatar

Your experience was different than mine, my parents threatened to send me to military school as I guess that would have taken the chore of beating me every day and subcontracted it. What I meant was fighting at school didn't automatically result in arrest for either party as it often does now. If some parents pursued that option it was left to them to initiate it. YMMV. Of course it a minor killed someone or something similar but that was rare in my area, Tennessee in the 70s/80s.

It's a real sin what's happening to kids today, especially those in government institutions whether it's educational or penal. Cops in school serve no purpose but to condition young minds to accept the: presence of uniformed, armed agents of the state posted in every corner of their daily lives. They're pumped full of chemicals to keep them docile and make them more pliable for indoctrination. Those who run afoul of the government get into the system and a history that follows them for life, marking them for ostracizing. And yes you're absolutely right about locking up girls for being difficult but it happens to boys too.

Have a great day!

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Trudi Nicola's avatar

This had me riveted. Such injustices yet not an ounce of self pity. Your writing is powerful.

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The Ivy Exile's avatar

This is an incredible piece, bravo!

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Charlotte Pendragon's avatar

Alternative Girl Gang is a good name for an all girl alternative rock band. 🎸 Sending you much love. Although being in that facility wasn’t an ideal place to stay to say the least, from that experience I would imagine the experience has given you much wisdom and insight, and of course a lot of empathy, love and deeper understanding for humanity and suffering. I’ll keep all your girls in my prayers. Everyone has the right to be loved. ✨🙏🤗💜

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Tychon's avatar

That was pretty damn grim. I am sorry that happened to you and these girls.

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Matthew Haviland's avatar

I don't care what anyone says about your philosophy, you nailed it with that fucking chair. Or Desk, or whatever.

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Tesstamona's avatar

I thought this might be hard to read bc I was in one of those places too, san bernardino county CA. but the way you went about telling it -- holy shit. some of the things that happen in those places are impossible to talk about, but what you focused on - the friendships, the ones who made it survivable (literally) - that right there is medicine. To this day, one of my greatest friends in the world is a girl I was in that place with back in the day. I was 15, she was 16. She knows me better than fkng anyone in many ways. so for that, i am grateful. thanks for the reminder. salute to you and all the girls in there for surviving that shit. its insane what can happen to you in the machine, especially when you're under 18.

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Autonomous Truck(er)s's avatar

That was one hell of an experience you had to go through.

Fantastic description of this crazy point in your life, well done.

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Sara's avatar

It’s mind blowing to me how common this (weird prisons for children) seems to be in the states. Anyway this is a great piece

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Rachel Haywire's avatar

Thank you, Sara!

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Deborah T. Hewitt's avatar

Such great and honest writing. Glad you are here to tell it.

ox

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Good Humor by CK Steefel's avatar

Any thoughts of turning this into a memoir? Good stuff. Thank you for sharing a time in your life that was most definitely unfun.

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Rachel Haywire's avatar

I wouldn’t be able to relive it at this point, but thank you!

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Imperceptible Relics's avatar

it might make good fan fiction...

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Rawle Nyanzi's avatar

Never thought I’d hear your origin story. This is pretty interesting.

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Contarini's avatar

This is right from the heart, Rachel. Great job. Thanks for capturing these times and sharing them with the world.

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Rachel Haywire's avatar

Thank you!

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Notes from the periphery's avatar

Such a great piece of writing, Rachel 🖤

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Mo_Diggs's avatar

Beautiful, truly affecting

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Brigitte's avatar

This is amazing! Thank you so so so much for cutting open your soul to share pieces of it with your readers. ❤️

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